Friday, May 29, 2015
There have been many changes in my life in the past year and I find myself constantly looking back. I know I should be looking at only today, as I've learned never to look back or forward, that we only have control over today. I lost my dad last year and think about him a lot. I talk to my mom all the time now and value the relationship we have. I think this has made us closer. I wish I could move to where she is living to be closer to her, but current circumstances do not permit this.
My youngest daughter is now out of school and will be in 7th grade next year. I can't believe how fast time flies and wish that she could be my baby forever. I love my kids dearly, but if I'm being honest she is my favorite. She is kind, empathetic, caring, and has an awesome sense of humour. She is so excited to be going to soccer camp this Summer at OSU for some intense goalie training. I'm hoping it helps to increase her self esteem.
I was laid off in February from a job that I loved and have not been able to find any work. I worked for the third time for an insanely controlling, unorganized, and lying employer out of CA, but quickly quit that job. I value my time with my family and flexibility is key for me. He wasn't so understanding of that and I found myself working all weekend to keep up with the deadlines that he promised other people. I truly believe we have to be happy with what we are doing and that was not a healthy situation for me mentally.
My middle daughter now has a job and is working 2 days a week. This may not sound like much, but with the disabilities she has, this is an amazing thing. She just turned 20 and is now learning how life really works and that money doesn't grow on trees. She is also learning the freedom of having a job and money and I think that helps her feel a little more independent.
My husband is working towards an engineer degree, but is taking the Summer off this year; he was in school last Summer. So, I'm hoping we are able to do some memory making and possibly go visit my mom before the hustle and bustle of school again in August.
I have don't any art work in over a year. With the loss of my dad and a close dear friend last year, the losing a job, and the constant bombardment of life; I just haven't had the motivation to do anything. I really would like to get my mojo back and do something creative. I do miss it dearly. I'll just have to take one day at a time and trust that God will show me the reason I'm supposed to be here.